Life goes on no matter what happens, people find a way to balance their lives.. That's what I penned down last ..
However today I have a different story to say - yes life goes on, but there are defining moments in life that make you a person you are, but this post isn’t really about those character building moments .. this is about those times when , even if its for a short while.. you realize that life isn’t really as predictable as you thought it was.. and sometimes there are no solutions that can make everything OK. This is about situations/ incidents /tragedies that compel you to re-think the way you have lived life, the way you’ve perceived yourself and those around you and bring back the lost humanity in you..
We as humans have an amazing mind that partitions itself so well that your day to day activities completely shut off the realities around the world.. and it takes a 9.2 Richter scale earthquake or a disastrous tsunami that claims millions of lives for us to wake up to the fact that we are slowly but surely being obliterated from the earth.. Whether or not we find another planet is a topic for another day. Whether the earth is just shaking us off of itself or whether its our own doing that has brought us to this stage is a question that has now lost its relevance, what is interesting though is that we are the most advanced form of life on earth and we haven't yet found a way to minimize if not completely evade human loss in natural disasters..
Yet.. this blog post is not about mass scale loss of life either.. its about the little incidents that are more closer.. living miles away from Haiti or Indonesia , earthquakes/tsunamis seem distant , something that cannot really happen or affect me.. What does disturb me though is the news of increasing number of deaths by DUIs, kids being kidnapped, raped and killed , stories of personal vengeance turning to massacres.
These days there is a report about at least one of the gory things I mentioned .. I generally go past these stories, to the science and technology section to see what Apple has got out in the market, its latest weapon to destroy what's left of the rest of the industry. But the day I do read them, especially the ones where kids are involved, I am pushed into a thought process that ends with me being skeptical about people around me, teachers, doctors, therapists, even clergy men - all but friends and family. Scared of future , thinking what if.. I were there ? What if it was one of my own? What do I do to protect the people I love? What do I do to make this world a safer place.. I'm visibly shaken and terribly disturbed.. But then.. I am after all a human, and a few hours later.. my minds calms itself and directs its focus on the papers lying on the desk, half empty cup of herbal tea and a half typed document , minimized on the computer screen.. Yes my mind has at this point successfully found a small partition of my brain where it can push these thoughts into and maintain peace for now.
You might think I am on a overdose of medicine.. or rather Law & Order SVU or CSI.. but no , this is real, more possible than a earthquake killing you, more probable than drowning in a tsunami.. not to undermine any of those tragedies.. but somehow these are happening closer to your world and at an alarmingly high rate. Crime used to fascinate me as a kid, it still does, but it sure can be scary... and its in these moments I close my eyes and am thankful for being alive , healthy and safe.. in all the unpredictability that surrounds the little world I've enveloped myself in.
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Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Sunday, November 1, 2009
Tujhse Naaraz Nahi Zindagi ..Hairaan Hoon Main..
The most intriguing part of life is that it goes on.. don’t know how.. right from getting over the reluctance of getting up at 6 to go to work.. to maintaining a healthy life, eating, exercising, to having a decent conversation without falling asleep in between .. everything seems hard these days, everything seems a chore.
I cannot fathom my life without the people I cherish the most, who I love and who love me back.. but the stress, the frustration, the daily agony is straining each and every relationship I treasure. There is a unexplainable distance, which seems non-existent at times but at other times its seems so huge that I am lost.. but life goes on..
I am the most tired, fatigued, exhausted (and all the synonyms you can find to express the feeling of almost dropping dead).. But yet, from an unknown source of energy, I wake up and dress up and drive to the train station, fearing what might be lying ahead in the day that will push me off the cliff.. the cliff of sanity to the abyss of irreproachable miserable insane depression... but then the day goes on, passes by and I come back to sanity of my home and life goes on....
Not to mention the lovely weather that's around these days.. when its not sunny that the skin burns, its gloomy .. gloomy enough to give me a heartache.. and when its not gloomy, its cold.. like the heart of Ebenezer Scrooge (Christmas Carol) .. but then life still goes on , no matter what the sun looks like..
We discover moon has water and mars can be inhabited and so we continue to destroy earth. We discover more and more ways to warm car seats and then make them perishable, we get diseases, we find cures, and then find that the cures give rise more complex diseases.. we get depressed for little things, and then be brave on the face of crisis.. we counter everything that ever happened around us and find a way to still get up and walk around like nothing happened.
Is there anything more intriguing than that? Life just goes on, just like the show that goes on.. that's possibly the only explanation why I take life so granted, I sleep and awake with predictability.. I think we as a human race have found balance in just about everything.. and as I read in a certain powerful ideological book.. "Even if the Sun weren't to rise, I am sure we will invent a substitute" . We will do everything to just make life go on...
I cannot fathom my life without the people I cherish the most, who I love and who love me back.. but the stress, the frustration, the daily agony is straining each and every relationship I treasure. There is a unexplainable distance, which seems non-existent at times but at other times its seems so huge that I am lost.. but life goes on..
I am the most tired, fatigued, exhausted (and all the synonyms you can find to express the feeling of almost dropping dead).. But yet, from an unknown source of energy, I wake up and dress up and drive to the train station, fearing what might be lying ahead in the day that will push me off the cliff.. the cliff of sanity to the abyss of irreproachable miserable insane depression... but then the day goes on, passes by and I come back to sanity of my home and life goes on....
Not to mention the lovely weather that's around these days.. when its not sunny that the skin burns, its gloomy .. gloomy enough to give me a heartache.. and when its not gloomy, its cold.. like the heart of Ebenezer Scrooge (Christmas Carol) .. but then life still goes on , no matter what the sun looks like..
We discover moon has water and mars can be inhabited and so we continue to destroy earth. We discover more and more ways to warm car seats and then make them perishable, we get diseases, we find cures, and then find that the cures give rise more complex diseases.. we get depressed for little things, and then be brave on the face of crisis.. we counter everything that ever happened around us and find a way to still get up and walk around like nothing happened.
Is there anything more intriguing than that? Life just goes on, just like the show that goes on.. that's possibly the only explanation why I take life so granted, I sleep and awake with predictability.. I think we as a human race have found balance in just about everything.. and as I read in a certain powerful ideological book.. "Even if the Sun weren't to rise, I am sure we will invent a substitute" . We will do everything to just make life go on...
Sunday, January 25, 2009
Kabhi Khud Pe Kabhi Haalat Pe Rona Aaya...
Why me .. ? how many times have we questioned ourselves that , how many times in our day to day life we've felt that the universe truly conspires to hit us hard when we are hurt the most .. and how many times have we felt a strange sympathy for ourselves..being the victim of the vicious circle of politicking and fraudulent systems.. inefficient methods and inconsistent society.
Self pity while being the most common trait in us, tends to eat away at your confidence slowly and steadily .. like arsenic poisoning in milligrams a day.. Its easy to pick out things that happen to us, but things aren't just happening to you and me..there are things that are happening all over the world to the entire human race.. not to mention the animals that are endangered.. and well how about earth itself? Why don't we ever wonder how mother earth would feel if she'd have the privilege to indulge in self pity? She'd go "Why torture me like this with Global Warming, with de-forestation, with ozone depletion, pollution, population, war, terror ... and mostly plastic...oh and as if that was not enough, you throw out space junk, so that one fine day it loses its orbit and comes crashes into me!!! .. Why me?!" Its rather strange how we forget that there are real problems in the world, in the universe that need to be addressed.. there are always problems in each one of our lives that will never go away.. why keep clinging to them and make life more miserable.. We as humans definitely tend to that quite often, we have queer pleasure in making our problems more complex than they really are and convincing our self to delve, revel, thrive in that gloated feeling of misery, when it is all really quite trivial..and can be simply resolved.
Isn't it a better thing to just take things in stride with a pinch of salt.. and if that's not enough, then a pinch of pepper as well and just be thankful for being alive and being able to think ..and truly speaking that is all one needs to survive it all... and sometimes food too.. there is nothing in this world that is more powerful than the human mind.. all you need to do is to tune it so that the mind stays at DC even when the situations around you are sinusoidal. However easy it is to succumb to self pity, one must realize that the greater truth is that if you are able to think, it means the worst has not come yet, and if you have lost your cognitive sense, then well you hardly would care about the world crumbling under your feet.. so there is no real reason for worry or sadness, not for prolonged time at least, it would only prohibit you from living life to its fullest. Having said that , its not good if you completely act ignorant of the compelling times ahead, but when things are out of your hand and there is nothing left to do, you wait and hope .. and patience is as much a virtue as is the ability to not sympathize with yourself!
Although sometimes this is easier said than done when you are in a particular helpless situation... There have been times when I have felt that there is so much that happened and there can be no looking up ever, times that my confidence in humanity was shattered, my dreams broken...but then the show never stops there, you pick up and move on... make more dreams, strive to make everyday worthy of you, rather than think that its never your day , your month .. or even your year.. you are what you make yourself to be.. and at the end of the day you can either be the winner by letting optimism take over.. or lose out on the good things in life by indulging in negativity and sympathy ..
As someone famous said -- Life is really long... don't make it more boring and longer by being sad.. Look inside yourself for happiness, then all else around will seem more saner and more beautiful than ever.. seek and thou shall find true love for life within thee.
Disclaimer: I absolutely love the song mentioned in the title.. its a beautiful song and nothing relates it to the actual content of this blog post, it just seemed a fit title, so used it...
Self pity while being the most common trait in us, tends to eat away at your confidence slowly and steadily .. like arsenic poisoning in milligrams a day.. Its easy to pick out things that happen to us, but things aren't just happening to you and me..there are things that are happening all over the world to the entire human race.. not to mention the animals that are endangered.. and well how about earth itself? Why don't we ever wonder how mother earth would feel if she'd have the privilege to indulge in self pity? She'd go "Why torture me like this with Global Warming, with de-forestation, with ozone depletion, pollution, population, war, terror ... and mostly plastic...oh and as if that was not enough, you throw out space junk, so that one fine day it loses its orbit and comes crashes into me!!! .. Why me?!" Its rather strange how we forget that there are real problems in the world, in the universe that need to be addressed.. there are always problems in each one of our lives that will never go away.. why keep clinging to them and make life more miserable.. We as humans definitely tend to that quite often, we have queer pleasure in making our problems more complex than they really are and convincing our self to delve, revel, thrive in that gloated feeling of misery, when it is all really quite trivial..and can be simply resolved.
Isn't it a better thing to just take things in stride with a pinch of salt.. and if that's not enough, then a pinch of pepper as well and just be thankful for being alive and being able to think ..and truly speaking that is all one needs to survive it all... and sometimes food too.. there is nothing in this world that is more powerful than the human mind.. all you need to do is to tune it so that the mind stays at DC even when the situations around you are sinusoidal. However easy it is to succumb to self pity, one must realize that the greater truth is that if you are able to think, it means the worst has not come yet, and if you have lost your cognitive sense, then well you hardly would care about the world crumbling under your feet.. so there is no real reason for worry or sadness, not for prolonged time at least, it would only prohibit you from living life to its fullest. Having said that , its not good if you completely act ignorant of the compelling times ahead, but when things are out of your hand and there is nothing left to do, you wait and hope .. and patience is as much a virtue as is the ability to not sympathize with yourself!
Although sometimes this is easier said than done when you are in a particular helpless situation... There have been times when I have felt that there is so much that happened and there can be no looking up ever, times that my confidence in humanity was shattered, my dreams broken...but then the show never stops there, you pick up and move on... make more dreams, strive to make everyday worthy of you, rather than think that its never your day , your month .. or even your year.. you are what you make yourself to be.. and at the end of the day you can either be the winner by letting optimism take over.. or lose out on the good things in life by indulging in negativity and sympathy ..
As someone famous said -- Life is really long... don't make it more boring and longer by being sad.. Look inside yourself for happiness, then all else around will seem more saner and more beautiful than ever.. seek and thou shall find true love for life within thee.
Disclaimer: I absolutely love the song mentioned in the title.. its a beautiful song and nothing relates it to the actual content of this blog post, it just seemed a fit title, so used it...
Friday, June 27, 2008
Zara nazron se khehdo ji....
Ah! the language of eyes.. if only all could read and understand each other without the necessity of spelling out emotions.. or even actions.. ! Perhaps its not easy and is rather confusing, but it sure pays when you master the skill!
But leave the ishaare with eyes alone, its difficult for most these days to even understand words..Gen X seems to need 10x the words and 10x 'round the bush turns' to take a simple thing to their head! Can't seem to fathom the simple.. it has to be complex, its like simplicity and logic was never even published in their version of the dictionary. There begins the saga of misunderstandings!
But they aren't to blame! Take the soap operas aired at prime time these days, where even if you try hard,.. grit your teeth and use all your Grey cells you can't understand why the protagonists try and test their pea brained husbands with a 'here-we-go-round-the-mulberry-bush-routine' of half-truth narrative of events. No wonder people these days try to search between lines and construct conspiracy theories when there aren't any! If they would only sit and talk honest with each other, misunderstandings would never arise.. but in that case I guess the serials would not run either.. well at least not for years and years!
Talking of Soap Operas.. I have recently started reading a PremChand Novel (Don't ask me where I found that!) and it sounds really like one of the soap opera's up on air.. not that stupid but has a lot of inside the house politicking, and loads of misunderstanding and complex situations.
The novel is set in Benares, at a time when girls were married off to a older men for the sake of mere money.. The story revolves around a girl Nirmala, who falls into misery after misery (see why I call it a mega series soap?).. firstly she agrees to a marriage with a person almost the age of her father and has three kids (like Paro in Devdas).. with obviously no opposition .. such were the times I guess, then she gets pushed around by her sis-in-law , but bears it silently again no opposition, but the most intriguing of her miseries is when there is a huge misunderstanding of her realtionship to the eldest son.. who is conveniently almost her age.
Then there is husband character, I am not sure what Premchand had in his mind when he wrote the novel, but according to me the husband is one of those people who needs to be vaporized from the face of earth! Realises not that his wife in no good mind can have a 'normal' marriage with him and goes on to be irked by her attention to kids so much that he creates a rift and a misunderstanding between the eldest son and the step mom that nearly cost's one of them their life!
The eldest son is ofcourse oblivious from his father's devious notions, thinks he's at fault for a unknown unexplained reason, and thinks he is the harbinger of sadness and misery to his father and his mother ... even his real mother that died! Only if they talked straight to each other none of this would arise. But people do have a habit of bringing hell on to themselves .. and so did Nirmala and her family. But enough about Nirmala here, I do have another blog where I do go into the story much deeper.. do stop by if you are intrigued or even just plain curious about the story!
But leave the ishaare with eyes alone, its difficult for most these days to even understand words..Gen X seems to need 10x the words and 10x 'round the bush turns' to take a simple thing to their head! Can't seem to fathom the simple.. it has to be complex, its like simplicity and logic was never even published in their version of the dictionary. There begins the saga of misunderstandings!
But they aren't to blame! Take the soap operas aired at prime time these days, where even if you try hard,.. grit your teeth and use all your Grey cells you can't understand why the protagonists try and test their pea brained husbands with a 'here-we-go-round-the-mulberry-bush-routine' of half-truth narrative of events. No wonder people these days try to search between lines and construct conspiracy theories when there aren't any! If they would only sit and talk honest with each other, misunderstandings would never arise.. but in that case I guess the serials would not run either.. well at least not for years and years!
Talking of Soap Operas.. I have recently started reading a PremChand Novel (Don't ask me where I found that!) and it sounds really like one of the soap opera's up on air.. not that stupid but has a lot of inside the house politicking, and loads of misunderstanding and complex situations.
The novel is set in Benares, at a time when girls were married off to a older men for the sake of mere money.. The story revolves around a girl Nirmala, who falls into misery after misery (see why I call it a mega series soap?).. firstly she agrees to a marriage with a person almost the age of her father and has three kids (like Paro in Devdas).. with obviously no opposition .. such were the times I guess, then she gets pushed around by her sis-in-law , but bears it silently again no opposition, but the most intriguing of her miseries is when there is a huge misunderstanding of her realtionship to the eldest son.. who is conveniently almost her age.
Then there is husband character, I am not sure what Premchand had in his mind when he wrote the novel, but according to me the husband is one of those people who needs to be vaporized from the face of earth! Realises not that his wife in no good mind can have a 'normal' marriage with him and goes on to be irked by her attention to kids so much that he creates a rift and a misunderstanding between the eldest son and the step mom that nearly cost's one of them their life!
The eldest son is ofcourse oblivious from his father's devious notions, thinks he's at fault for a unknown unexplained reason, and thinks he is the harbinger of sadness and misery to his father and his mother ... even his real mother that died! Only if they talked straight to each other none of this would arise. But people do have a habit of bringing hell on to themselves .. and so did Nirmala and her family. But enough about Nirmala here, I do have another blog where I do go into the story much deeper.. do stop by if you are intrigued or even just plain curious about the story!
Tuesday, June 3, 2008
Zindagi kaisi hai paheli...
There are ups and downs trials and tribulations...and yet life is life.. you hate being yourself sometimes.. Wish you weren't yourself when you are depressed about gaining that extra pound or when you have a nagging pain pounding your head.. or this one's my favorite.. when your going through a heart break.. You feel.. why am I myself.. but the universe answers for you. You are what you are for a certain purpose it which fits into the bigger picture, if you were not there the chain of events would have been different.. If you are facing difficulties, its for a purpose and not in vain.. and so're the rest of the people around you. Sometimes I come face to face with people who I secretly wish could be vaporized from the face of the earth... just for their incompetance or their stupidity.. it can be frustrating at times.. but then I realize after they've left that they might be better at something else.. they just may not be the best people in my field.. and I owe them that benefit of doubt that they are in the wrong place.. all they have to do is identify their purpose in life.
Hey and whoever said life's perfect.. either is smoking pot.. or is in a deep bliss of ignorance. I see people laughing and playing and getting almost everything they wished upon the star for, but the point I try to think.. they have luck.. so what? I have perseverance.. and thats what comes handy when luck runs out. I was really jealous of all those people who got jobs I'd kill for and got paid and laid much faster than I did, But then.. if I had followed the suit..I would not be here with a higher degree of education and of respect.. I love myself now.. the respect I get when I tell them I am a doc! So there was a purpose for me not getting an instant placement..
I used to scorn when my mother in her typical nirupa roy tone used to tell me " Jo kuch hota hai, sab acche ke liye hota hai". I realize now that what she meant was not that whats happening is going to beget good.. but you can make it a life experience and learn from it.. So one might question... So what did I learn by being involved in a relationship that gave me nothing but sadness.. like my friend asked wide eyed and tearfully, when her 7 year old relationship with her boy friend came crashing down two days before her final.
Tough.. I said.. but you will realize eventually.. and well yeah she did.. realize the new found freedom and the ability to make her own decisions and joys of being single again!! And the pressure before her final made her flunk it.. but she made it up next sem with better percentage..! a tiny winy minor detail!
But the point is.. life is tough.. its not perfect..swings like a sinusoid.. but hey.. its your's and its upto you what you make out of it.. Depression can pull you down.. or just shrug and walk on.. and you'll realize the beauty of life..
Zindagi... kaisi hai paheli haii... kabhi to hasaye.. kabhi yeh rulaye...
Hey and whoever said life's perfect.. either is smoking pot.. or is in a deep bliss of ignorance. I see people laughing and playing and getting almost everything they wished upon the star for, but the point I try to think.. they have luck.. so what? I have perseverance.. and thats what comes handy when luck runs out. I was really jealous of all those people who got jobs I'd kill for and got paid and laid much faster than I did, But then.. if I had followed the suit..I would not be here with a higher degree of education and of respect.. I love myself now.. the respect I get when I tell them I am a doc! So there was a purpose for me not getting an instant placement..
I used to scorn when my mother in her typical nirupa roy tone used to tell me " Jo kuch hota hai, sab acche ke liye hota hai". I realize now that what she meant was not that whats happening is going to beget good.. but you can make it a life experience and learn from it.. So one might question... So what did I learn by being involved in a relationship that gave me nothing but sadness.. like my friend asked wide eyed and tearfully, when her 7 year old relationship with her boy friend came crashing down two days before her final.
Tough.. I said.. but you will realize eventually.. and well yeah she did.. realize the new found freedom and the ability to make her own decisions and joys of being single again!! And the pressure before her final made her flunk it.. but she made it up next sem with better percentage..! a tiny winy minor detail!
But the point is.. life is tough.. its not perfect..swings like a sinusoid.. but hey.. its your's and its upto you what you make out of it.. Depression can pull you down.. or just shrug and walk on.. and you'll realize the beauty of life..
Zindagi... kaisi hai paheli haii... kabhi to hasaye.. kabhi yeh rulaye...
Friday, November 30, 2007
Naam Bade Aur Darshan Chote...
Yes.. the world around me does remind me constantly of this song that I used to often hear on my Dad's Old Hindi Songs collection... "Bholi surat dil ke khote, Naam bade aur Darshan chote" a cry of frustration when one is duped by the dangerous hype that completely evades the actual truth.. this is prevalent in every walk of life.. there is famous saying that goes "Empty vessels make more noise" no one seems to be realising that these days... It might have started years/eons ago.. but has taken a different and for-the-worse twist now.. and as someone great I know said.."We are living in perilous times darling.. The World belongs to Bullshitters". Oh God .. what wouldn't I do to keep things straight forward.. instead of playing with words so much that they eventually mean nothing..all though this has been existing from long long time.. the frustration with such people came back with vengeance not too long back... and with a movie called "Saawariya" ... in two words.. terrible disappointment.. I have read white nights.. and expected the director to do some justice.. as the story itself has not much in it.. its all the characters... and the melancholic wait of the lady and then the man..its not about innocent love.. its about the passion in their wait... he has all his priorities wrong in the movie.. took some really straight forward people and complicated them to hell.. played with hysteria and voila... saawariya.. oh and by the way the 40 crores that were wasted on this movie.. and Sanjayji asks "I have visuals.. and I have good songs .. what else does the audience want" .. How unassuming!! Hah! Does he think his audience is as dumb as him.. Good Lord made a soft romantic short story into a nightmare.. this could have as well been done on a pretty bridge by the dal lake even.. and would have been a hit had he stuck to the book... but alas.. had to waste crores... can never get over that fact.. I am not against using opulent sets.. no way.. I am probably the most ardent fan or art directors.. people who are constantly ignored.. and the art is good.. only when substantiated by equivalent goodness and soundness in story, direction, action... Alas.. we don't live in that world anymore.. and what hurts me even more.. is that people actually think its a master piece.. It took me a galore of Hrishikesh Mukherji's movies to get me back to normalcy..
And just when I was recovering.. bullshitters strike back with a vengeance... and I realized that they do this more often than any supervillian in a comic book does..In a certain class I take I came across this one person who speaks.. and oh my does he speak.. anyone with even an ounce of knowledge of the subject will know that its bull shit! but he chooses his victims carefully.. and talks about the subject as though he's known it all of his life.. the truth is nada...nothing at all.. nor knowledge, nor facts.. but yet people listen to him with rapt attention as though he is some Guru... I did feel like walking up and yelling and saying.. wait.. this is not real stuff.. he's just speaking for the sake of it... not real matter.. And I would have if sense had not prevailed over me.. but that was not the end.. a certain professor I spoke to replies to a query when asked what is the value of this constant? It could be N .. it could be N+1.. it could be anything.. its more important that you understand that it could be anything than thinking perse what it could be actually...." Grrr.. the truth there was that the constant could and should take one and only one values else the whole theory is annulled! I did not know whether to break into tears or laughter... and the philosopher who created the "may be" theory... that proposes that man should never be certain about anything.. even the plain visible facts.. no the grass may be green, pink or blue.. you never know... yes but what is visible to you, there should be some absolutes somewhere.. axioms of which you derive and propose theories.. they may be disproved.. but then there is another axiom that has come into picture that has disproved it.. there has to be a fixed point somewhere..
But what happens to all these people in real life? The student gets a job offer in a reknown company even before he can complete his first year .. the professor has got an opportunity in a another univ and left ours (thank God for that ).. and millions of copies of the book by that the "may be" philosopher are sold... why?? covering things in ambiguity has become a fad these days .. a person in a job is not told his exact responsibilities.. why because they don't simply know.. throwing terms around and shrouding them in ambiguity.. and laugh around at people who stand up against it and demand clarity "Hah.. you don't understand us??" Why can't people be simple and straight forward.. everything would be so clear if one just said straight forwardly.. this is what it is.. this is what you should do.. else a simple I don't know... lets find out... Its as simple as that.. if its not.. we'll tackle layer by layer.. but if the issues, facts, nothing is straight what can one do? except.. sing the way I did "Bhole surat dil ke khote, naam bade aur darshan chote"... and thus the world disappoints me...as I await the day when questions like "are you living? do you exist" come up with the answer "may be... who knows.. nothing is certain.."
And just when I was recovering.. bullshitters strike back with a vengeance... and I realized that they do this more often than any supervillian in a comic book does..In a certain class I take I came across this one person who speaks.. and oh my does he speak.. anyone with even an ounce of knowledge of the subject will know that its bull shit! but he chooses his victims carefully.. and talks about the subject as though he's known it all of his life.. the truth is nada...nothing at all.. nor knowledge, nor facts.. but yet people listen to him with rapt attention as though he is some Guru... I did feel like walking up and yelling and saying.. wait.. this is not real stuff.. he's just speaking for the sake of it... not real matter.. And I would have if sense had not prevailed over me.. but that was not the end.. a certain professor I spoke to replies to a query when asked what is the value of this constant? It could be N .. it could be N+1.. it could be anything.. its more important that you understand that it could be anything than thinking perse what it could be actually...." Grrr.. the truth there was that the constant could and should take one and only one values else the whole theory is annulled! I did not know whether to break into tears or laughter... and the philosopher who created the "may be" theory... that proposes that man should never be certain about anything.. even the plain visible facts.. no the grass may be green, pink or blue.. you never know... yes but what is visible to you, there should be some absolutes somewhere.. axioms of which you derive and propose theories.. they may be disproved.. but then there is another axiom that has come into picture that has disproved it.. there has to be a fixed point somewhere..
But what happens to all these people in real life? The student gets a job offer in a reknown company even before he can complete his first year .. the professor has got an opportunity in a another univ and left ours (thank God for that ).. and millions of copies of the book by that the "may be" philosopher are sold... why?? covering things in ambiguity has become a fad these days .. a person in a job is not told his exact responsibilities.. why because they don't simply know.. throwing terms around and shrouding them in ambiguity.. and laugh around at people who stand up against it and demand clarity "Hah.. you don't understand us??" Why can't people be simple and straight forward.. everything would be so clear if one just said straight forwardly.. this is what it is.. this is what you should do.. else a simple I don't know... lets find out... Its as simple as that.. if its not.. we'll tackle layer by layer.. but if the issues, facts, nothing is straight what can one do? except.. sing the way I did "Bhole surat dil ke khote, naam bade aur darshan chote"... and thus the world disappoints me...as I await the day when questions like "are you living? do you exist" come up with the answer "may be... who knows.. nothing is certain.."
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
Main Khayyal Huin
Main khayyal huin --- Means I am a thought..and yes I did flick the dialog off an old epic serial aired on TV when I was a kid.. every episode used to start with "Main samay huin.." meaning I am time.. its after the passive viewer of every life on this and other universes. On the other hand there is a thought.. very much active alive.. thriving in everyone's mind... frolicking from a definite form to a random thought and then blowing itself to an indefinite sphere.. and then.. reality comes forth and u realize how difficult it is to trace back the trail of thoughts that occurred.. where did it all start.. and where have I come to? Which one to be.. the thought of course.. just for the reason that its simpler..
There are too many things in the world to think about... is it a surprise then that a thought is more random than the most random noise that can be found in the current wireless comm systems.. hmm.. so let me start off on one...I have often begun thinking about happiness and laughter.. and the pleasant things that I have had in life.. and end up getting depressed.. hmm interesting isn't it that I end up at exactly 180 degrees across from where I begun..
Well.. its true isn't it that life is like a sine wave.. once high once low.. but then isn't body a system and the mind its controller. No matter where the pointer of life is on a crest or a trough, mind always makes sure it remains at DC... not moving anywhere..hmm interesting .. but only in thought.. not in reality.. it takes tremendous effort to be a passive observer of your own self and control the moves you make. But the truly great manage to do that.. I wish I knew the secret to success in E control.. and that's E for emotion.. not E for energy!! and then of course the classic question that I ask myself every time I try to practice it.. " Is it really that necessary that I exhibit control.. isn't life meant to be lived?" and so.. I am a thought..
There are too many things in the world to think about... is it a surprise then that a thought is more random than the most random noise that can be found in the current wireless comm systems.. hmm.. so let me start off on one...I have often begun thinking about happiness and laughter.. and the pleasant things that I have had in life.. and end up getting depressed.. hmm interesting isn't it that I end up at exactly 180 degrees across from where I begun..
Well.. its true isn't it that life is like a sine wave.. once high once low.. but then isn't body a system and the mind its controller. No matter where the pointer of life is on a crest or a trough, mind always makes sure it remains at DC... not moving anywhere..hmm interesting .. but only in thought.. not in reality.. it takes tremendous effort to be a passive observer of your own self and control the moves you make. But the truly great manage to do that.. I wish I knew the secret to success in E control.. and that's E for emotion.. not E for energy!! and then of course the classic question that I ask myself every time I try to practice it.. " Is it really that necessary that I exhibit control.. isn't life meant to be lived?" and so.. I am a thought..
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